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laugh laugh laugh November 7, 2009

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bottle up the wine
i feel fine

who am i

i don’t care

i laugh and i laugh

i chuckle

and i smirk at my life

who am i

this man that can’t cry

November 7, 2009

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明为知
知为之
之知也

闷之闲
闲之悠
悠之忧
忧之言
言之悲
悲之伤
伤之敷
敷之略
略之情
情之泛
泛之法
法之道
道之夕
夕之阳
阳之落
落之叶
叶之飞
飞之遥
遥之霄
霄之远
远之清
清之零
零之闷

古意明新心智烦也
清了及晕情体操也
料及身悲

fiction citation November 5, 2009

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who tells the story of others
with validation and quoted citation
of lives living in the world of civilization
geometrical mentality without functional imagination
bland, tasteless and copious
who’s who what what
entangling lies forwarded with truths beneath
you have your own eyes to believe
free your mind from mindless diseases
to create a path of rented story
until
one day

shielding stories whiting lyings
patches of truth with clouds
waiting for the visually impaired
and the mentally despaired to shout it out loud!
that’s the new truth!
when it is being echoed deafly

do you have a clear mind?
what’s wrong or right?
would you know, if i don’t want you to know?
and i hide it from you?

is it fair?
this is life…

never endingly alive!

room921: Dear, November 5, 2009

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dear,

” when i am in love,
all i want to do is just to hold your hand,
to look into your eyes and hug you by my side,
to kiss you goodnight,
and look at you when you are asleep in the morning,
feeling envious that i am not able to share your dream tonight,
and laugh back at myself as i always wake up later than you
when i am in love,
all i want to do is just to have you by my side,
lying in the bed doing nothing,
cuddling all day and night.”

but i can”t sleep.

you never know me.
i wonder why, why i was given a chance to try.
i wonder why, why i persisted even when i was being denied.
then you lied.
then i lied.

i always know you.
you never forget, you never
stop comparing, and wanted to feel it back.
you felt sorry and wondered if it was correct.
that’s why you sometimes felt it high and sometimes flat
when you’re with me, you wished you never had.

when you said it, i had predicted it.
you said you would cry, and i wondered why.
but i just said goodbye.

and now i cry.

it is incomplete.
because there is the why.

 

regards

bribe you with my love (jazz) November 4, 2009

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i’m gonna to bribe you with my love

stay a little while, longer
stay so we could chill together
my bad
my excuses

baby baby look at me
ain’t i’m the man you’re looking for
look at me, i’ll be your fantasy
look at me baby, darling
let our love be free

cuz i’m gonna bribe you with my love

hold my hands
as tight as you can
lock you lips around mine
as tight as you can
oh~ i have the world
oh~ i have you as the world
i’m the king of the world

stay with me
i am bribing you with my love

hanging on October 30, 2009

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slowly moving against the hissing of falling
before surrendering it graces on its feeling
knowing it shouldn’t be minding fouling
falling graces without trace

disintegrating  heart’s mechanical beating
impulses cease generating who’s blaming
overwhelmingly is its feeling  it is bailing
beating whose lousy truce

i am stranger on the loose
edge of life, i am on the brink of catching
myself

 

the unborn child October 28, 2009

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every heartbeat
crafting a son of love
living inside
your heaven and earth
—(life inside a mother’s womb)

threads of life wovened within
bathing love in between
first heart beat tickling
decrescendo in beating

 

hopes. dreams. shattered

silence

tears. life. lost

lost. love. found

found. serenity. peace

 

my love for the unborn child
cherishing the eternal of temperance
that you have given me

room921: i walked around October 27, 2009

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i walked around, almost fall down and drown
there’s your frown, i looked like a clown

hi there sunny
you look bright and you shine
hi there honey
how i wish you’re mine

 

disillusioned October 17, 2009

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i thought i attacked and won, only to realize that i defended to victory.

feeling disillusioned.

i thought i can’t cry, now the tears are on the brink of flowing down.

feeling weakened.

why, why why?

does it matters anymore?

trying to define…

everything.

i am crying: a lie October 12, 2009

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i am crying
i am stupidly a great imaginative guy
i can hear the music of my tears
i can listen to the stories behind
i can have the greatest screenplay

and i can never taste my tears
and i can never taste my tears

who i am in this world
humming the sad song of my girl

who i am sing this to
ranting the lyrics for you

that i am
sitting right here
like a stone and will never move
that i am
waiting right here
trying to cry
trying to cry

i am writing you a poem October 7, 2009

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nothing
nothing rhymes anymore
with you
i’ll taste life when it is raw
it seems
i’ll sing when i write
may be
to see the word in plight

my word in defense
attacking me off hand
dead is dead at its best
when it was never alive
that’s my words of my life

this is not the poem you would want to read
for i’m sickening myself slicing words to bleed
and i couldn’t weep
and i can’t weep

show me the lead
for there was once when my eyes feel the heat
tears won’t fall down
i still have the crown
i still own the crown

i am lonely,
the loner that can’t weep

who are you but myself in mirror
telling you to graph my sorrow
you you you you you
are my lifetime horror

can’t say i love you September 28, 2009

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what about the day i ran away
away to the darkest place
what about the day not a word is said
deep silence surrendering fate
my faith

i trotted
and i saw
i lived
and i breathed
the air
that you breathed
and love you always
still

i wrote it on the paper and tore it away
i sang it into a song that will never play
i loved it this way and let it burnt away
into ashes into the grey

got on this line and marked you fine
details in all the lines you’re mine
stay, i will, stay i shall
follow you always

i am the coward that still living behind shadows
of tomorrows

do you hate me September 18, 2009

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do you hate me
do you hate me
do you
do you
do you

the day you called me and i said i love you
the next thing i knew was that you no longer do
i said goodbye and i’ll miss you too
never never i ask what’s went wrong
and what can i do

stepped back, cooled down and be a vegetarian
meditation turned me into something total alien
emotionally labile and totally not temperate
wondering why we only quarrel after we’re not together
but what can i do

we needed time

do you hate me
do you hate me
do you hate me
do you
do you

time went by and i can’t stop thinking about you
every time i sleep you’re in my mind, you’re one of a kind
what’s went wrong
what’s went wrong
do you hate me
do you hate me

do you hate me
standing still
looked at you
doing so few
do you hate me
that i still look at you
with the eyes that say i love you
brushing shoulder wanting you
all that are nothing new

because i still love you
the one i call friend, that’s you

re- September 2, 2009

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tearing me apart
from my head down to toes
leaving no trace
i was john doe

going to put my heart into safe guard
because whatever i am doing is akin throwing a dart
never know which surface is going to turn up
while my heart waiting with lup dup lup dup lup dup~

tearing myself dry
from inside to outside
leaving no trace
of what’s like my face

i am a skeleton with a beating heart
pumping blood to my every part
waiting for my flesh and skin to mold
is my weakened frame going to hold?

tearing me apart
like you’re tearing a tree bark
leaving no trace
you are john doe or jane doe or whatever

re-
re-

live

孤者与笔 August 25, 2009

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拿起一支笔 等待灵感的侵袭
月圆的旋律 一个人的圆舞曲
无聊的玄机 敲起你我的记忆

唱一唱孤伤的夜晚
女儿红鼓撑着被忘
恰如小溪流着急弯
鹏海叹息朝这惜湾

古琴伴奏 举笔安候
中鼓击斗 舞笔着柔
一响一收 拟声描愁

悠游。游忧

孤者之躯
漫谱着曲
游者之笔
话绘这季

walking a-long August 22, 2009

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walk along
walk along
walk along the long long road

i look at my left and i see you
just in time before your shadow fade
i look again and i see truth
just in time to know that i’m late

i look at my right and i see you
looking at me before i let my tears dry
i look again and i see truth
staring at me and i have no place to hide

walk along
walk along
walk along the long long road

love’s blind August 20, 2009

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tell me i’m blind when i see only you
tell me it’s fine when i love only you
tell me the world’s mine when i have you
tell me tell me a thousand times
i love you
i love you
i love you

every day and night

sing the la la la song August 20, 2009

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i guess i never want to forget
i guess they are just my regret
all the things that i could never get
i’m walking away, head down with a hat

la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~
la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~

you have the sweetest voice
but you never get the melody
while i’m lyricist
that is writing our history

la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~
la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~

keeping you as the fragmented memory
so i can make up my own story
to fulfill my decorated fantasy
walking with the hat, down the journey

la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~
la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~

humming my story
strumming the string

can’t find a word to say to you
and this is all i can do

la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~
la~ la la~ la lala~ la la la~

let me be August 16, 2009

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let me be
the one that brings your memory
the one that keeps you company
silent in history
only humming your melody
with your breathing symphony

let me be
the one that owns your fantasy
the one that saves you from jeoperdy
silent in history
singing your melody
with your heart beating in symphony

let me love you
when you don’t want me to
when i doubt myself would
when the world isn’t good

let me be the man
that will always hold your hand
coming out from the dark
no longer pretend

that i love you

voices August 8, 2009

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i wrote too many love songs
all of tunes are so wrong
so many intermittent silence
and i have lost all my patience

shh~
calm down the voices in my head
shh~
i can’t sleed tight in my bed
shh~
it was just something sad
shh~
nothing so bad…nothing so bad
shh~

i need the silence…
no one talking…
no one…should be talking in my head

no one

i still August 3, 2009

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every moment calls it fame
i just see it as my shame
down to the slightest angle
i still see you as my angel

time after time
i keep you in my lines
time after time
i still see you in my mind

yes i still
no i will
please be still
that’s my will
how i feel
is this real
love that kills
from you

yes i will
still love you
how i feel
this is real