bottle up the wine
i feel fine

who am i

i don’t care

i laugh and i laugh

i chuckle

and i smirk at my life

who am i

this man that can’t cry

明为知
知为之
之知也

闷之闲
闲之悠
悠之忧
忧之言
言之悲
悲之伤
伤之敷
敷之略
略之情
情之泛
泛之法
法之道
道之夕
夕之阳
阳之落
落之叶
叶之飞
飞之遥
遥之霄
霄之远
远之清
清之零
零之闷

古意明新心智烦也
清了及晕情体操也
料及身悲

who tells the story of others
with validation and quoted citation
of lives living in the world of civilization
geometrical mentality without functional imagination
bland, tasteless and copious
who’s who what what
entangling lies forwarded with truths beneath
you have your own eyes to believe
free your mind from mindless diseases
to create a path of rented story
until
one day

shielding stories whiting lyings
patches of truth with clouds
waiting for the visually impaired
and the mentally despaired to shout it out loud!
that’s the new truth!
when it is being echoed deafly

do you have a clear mind?
what’s wrong or right?
would you know, if i don’t want you to know?
and i hide it from you?

is it fair?
this is life…

never endingly alive!

dear,

” when i am in love,
all i want to do is just to hold your hand,
to look into your eyes and hug you by my side,
to kiss you goodnight,
and look at you when you are asleep in the morning,
feeling envious that i am not able to share your dream tonight,
and laugh back at myself as i always wake up later than you
when i am in love,
all i want to do is just to have you by my side,
lying in the bed doing nothing,
cuddling all day and night.”

but i can”t sleep.

you never know me.
i wonder why, why i was given a chance to try.
i wonder why, why i persisted even when i was being denied.
then you lied.
then i lied.

i always know you.
you never forget, you never
stop comparing, and wanted to feel it back.
you felt sorry and wondered if it was correct.
that’s why you sometimes felt it high and sometimes flat
when you’re with me, you wished you never had.

when you said it, i had predicted it.
you said you would cry, and i wondered why.
but i just said goodbye.

and now i cry.

it is incomplete.
because there is the why.

regards

i’m gonna to bribe you with my love

stay a little while, longer
stay so we could chill together
my bad
my excuses

baby baby look at me
ain’t i’m the man you’re looking for
look at me, i’ll be your fantasy
look at me baby, darling
let our love be free

cuz i’m gonna bribe you with my love

hold my hands
as tight as you can
lock you lips around mine
as tight as you can
oh~ i have the world
oh~ i have you as the world
i’m the king of the world

stay with me
i am bribing you with my love

slowly moving against the hissing of falling
before surrendering it graces on its feeling
knowing it shouldn’t be minding fouling
falling graces without trace

disintegrating  heart’s mechanical beating
impulses cease generating who’s blaming
overwhelmingly is its feeling  it is bailing
beating whose lousy truce

i am stranger on the loose
edge of life, i am on the brink of catching
myself

every heartbeat
crafting a son of love
living inside
your heaven and earth
—(life inside a mother’s womb)

threads of life wovened within
bathing love in between
first heart beat tickling
decrescendo in beating

hopes. dreams. shattered

silence

…

tears. life. lost

lost. love. found

found. serenity. peace

my love for the unborn child
cherishing the eternal of temperance
that you have given me

i walked around, almost fall down and drown
there’s your frown, i looked like a clown

hi there sunny
you look bright and you shine
hi there honey
how i wish you’re mine

i thought i attacked and won, only to realize that i defended to victory.

feeling disillusioned.

i thought i can’t cry, now the tears are on the brink of flowing down.

feeling weakened.

why, why why?

does it matters anymore?

trying to define…

everything.

i am crying
i am stupidly a great imaginative guy
i can hear the music of my tears
i can listen to the stories behind
i can have the greatest screenplay

and i can never taste my tears
and i can never taste my tears

who i am in this world
humming the sad song of my girl

who i am sing this to
ranting the lyrics for you

that i am
sitting right here
like a stone and will never move
that i am
waiting right here
trying to cry
trying to cry

nothing
nothing rhymes anymore
with you
i’ll taste life when it is raw
it seems
i’ll sing when i write
may be
to see the word in plight

my word in defense
attacking me off hand
dead is dead at its best
when it was never alive
that’s my words of my life

this is not the poem you would want to read
for i’m sickening myself slicing words to bleed
and i couldn’t weep
and i can’t weep

show me the lead
for there was once when my eyes feel the heat
tears won’t fall down
i still have the crown
i still own the crown

i am lonely,
the loner that can’t weep

who are you but myself in mirror
telling you to graph my sorrow
you you you you you
are my lifetime horror

what about the day i ran away
away to the darkest place
what about the day not a word is said
deep silence surrendering fate
my faith

i trotted
and i saw
i lived
and i breathed
the air
that you breathed
and love you always
still

i wrote it on the paper and tore it away
i sang it into a song that will never play
i loved it this way and let it burnt away
into ashes into the grey

got on this line and marked you fine
details in all the lines you’re mine
stay, i will, stay i shall
follow you always

i am the coward that still living behind shadows
of tomorrows